Adda Mabalina

I find myself sometimes feeling lonely or incomplete. When I feel this way, I tend to wish my partner gave me more. I feel disconnected from them. But I realize now, that when I feel this lonliness...it really isn't a connection with them that I am missing. It truly is a disconnection from myself. It's a sign that I have been neglecting myself and my happiness.

I am glad I realized this about myself. Now, I can focus on how to care for myself, and ways to make myself happy. I am glad that now that I am older, I realize these things about myself. I can take control of my own life and choices, and make myself better.

So what do I plan to do in order to work on my self care again? I want to go back to dance class! I miss it soo sooo SOOO much. I love dancing. I love what it brings out of me, and I love what it does for my soul. It's time to go back to hip hop dance class. It's also time to explore other dance studios.

I also want to find a new gym or find a one on one trainer. Lifting weights is badass, but injuring yourself is not. Sometimes I think that gym I go to is way too focused on group workouts, that form is sacrificed. No one really tells me I am lifting wrong. What if I am, but the trainers don't notice because there are 20 other people exercising with me too? I want to find a really good trainer that can help me build muscle again. I am not sure when I am going to start this, but I do plan to get better at working out while protecting myself. My old trainer in Stockton was an amazing trainer, and I miss him. If only he lived in Sacramento, I would love to work with him again.

Anyways, these aren't new years resolutions. These are just...reminders for myself. A reminder that only I can change my life and bring myself ultimate happiness.