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dannixfresh
Age. 32
Gender. Female
Ethnicity. Filipino
Location , CA
School. Other
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It’s called growth
Thursday. 7.11.19 10:00 am
Hello, I’m Daneva, and I’m a serial dater. Or, was*

Since after my 5-6 year long term relationship (a year and a half ago since then now), I have dated one guy to the next. I never truly let myself be single...until now.

It’s a breathe of fresh air, to finally feel like I’m choosing me. I’ve been weirdly independent, and yet codependent on others for emotional support. I missed the aspect of my relationship where I could vent and tell everything to my partner. I always tried to find it with someone else. But now, I realize I need to find that emotional support and stability within myself.

I’ve been taking more time to finally process my long term relationship breakup. I buried my feelings by dating others and hoping the next would be the One. Well, maybe not “the one”, but someone who could take the pain away. I was looking for the perfect person who could make me feel like my life’s complete. I put myself on the back burner and gave to other people.

Now, I’ve decided to focus on me. What makes Daneva happy? What makes Daneva thrive? What goals do I have that I want to accomplish? What actions can you take to reach your goals? These are all questions I have been focusing on these last 2 months of singleness.

I’m hiking more, I’m dancing more, and I’m running more. I’m also staying away from dairy most of the time because hate to admit it to myself, but I am 200% lactose intolerant and it’s getting worse everyday. I’m more conscientious of what foods I put in my body so my gut doesn’t act up. I’ve been a better dog mom to my 2 babies, and I’ve also been working extra. I’m able to control my anger more, and don’t feel as stressed out as before. I’ve been spending time with friends, and building those relationship I have. Somewhere along the lines, I’ve decided to be the best me everyday. Some days, I hate it. Some days are more comfortable to dwell in sadness and lay in bed all day. But, there’s pain with change. It takes discipline to not let myself fall into my old habits.

I don’t know who I’m growing into, but I know it’s way better than who I was before.

It’s scary. It’s exciting. And It’s called growth.

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